thank U saturn

thoughts on the "closing" of my saturn return cycle



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saturn return cycle closings
and "completions" . . . for now
saturn accompanied me, teaching me
bringing EDGE to my experiences
in the fourth house
saturn in leo fourth house
for this taurus
inner and outer reorientations
of my emotional body
regaining emotional freedom and ease
like feeling myself breathe again
feeling the breath go deep
and go slow in and out
opening to the space inside that
can receive the dharma of feelings
and the presence of another in my life

a friend always told me about my
"emotional unavailability-ness"
and i never actually felt ;-) what
she was talking about

maybe a little clearer for myself now
the place inside of me that is starting
to clear itself, starting to experience
new growth perhaps . . . maybe
maybe

recently though
i've come to see
the angels protectors and friendly guides
who have been with me
compassionately generously offering their presence
all my powerful caring friends of the cancerian astrological family
all the friends i've known who have kept me watered and nurtured
even when i was pulling in and did not know how best to take care of myself

the buddhanature of
(((mother)))nature
the great mother that cares for all things
the nature of caring from near and afar
always, always, always

saturn's teachings to know claim and care
for my emotions in ways i have never known
and the gift of an old friendship and new relationship arises
helping me, guiding me, taking me, pulling me
to explore the possibility of completing the birth i took healing for (stephen levine)

completing the birth i took healing for

"creating a love in peace"

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hope to be able to visit here more often
to reconnect to voice and to language
and the transformative power of writing
the power stored in words
shamanic energetic restorations
when i sit here for a long moment
and write, write, clarify, write
using words as a bridge to return
to clarity, beauty, light and eternity
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thank U saturn
for the teachings and the support

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12/1/07

been having conversations with friends
other travelers and 'journeyers' (anne)
who are crossing over their own borders
all of us, moving past the places that no
longer serve their purpose and finding
ourselves in that place of void, the emptiness
where things become remade rebirthed and
more possible again...
all these friends moving through the saturn process
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a dear one feeling the call southwardly san cristobal de las casas, mexico city...and next? guatemala is it dear friend? return to brasil, the stones are calling? peru?
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and another, on her way to san francisco...
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